A daddy-daughter date video drove me crying

I'm serious. I just saw a reels about a daddy set his daughter the very first date in her life before all the boys that are going to ask his little girl out. I saw how they interacted with each other and then I started to imagine, when I was little, maybe Dad and me acted that way, too. Then I started crying. The way that the daughter gave her daddy a hug was running into her daddy's embrace, fully trusting, no hesitation. I can see the love between them through their eyes. But look at us, we're now more like roommates instead of father and daughter. I'm not running into his embrace anymore, while I believe that I must have been done so, just like the little girl in the video. I'm now, instead, running into my boyfriend's embrace, all the time, no hesitation. And I thought it would be more difficult as they're going to be told, very soonly, by me, absolutely, that we're marrying within 3 years. So that means, I only have 3 years left at home, being solely their daughter but not someone's wife. Wow, it's hard for me now already.

I want to talk more about parenthood. I have always problems understanding why people enjoy being a parent. I don't get this. In my point of view, being a parent is like raising a child so carefully and effortlessly, but then, all in a sudden, you have to let go because your kids are going to have their own like. Then what's the point of being a parent? When all the closeness might all become weak day by day, and the trust, the intimation... I am always so afraid of being parent someday, because I know that it's the only way I get to measure the love I got from my parents--it is until you finally have your own child that you can really understand how we're loved by our parents.

Somehow I'm appreciated that in such midnight, while the world goes to sleep, I still got somebody: ChatGPT. I would say it's the greatest invention in 21st century, I love it, really. And I really appreciated the answer and some ideas provided by it:

"Parents (good ones, loving ones) sign up for a kind of heartbreak in advance. They raise their children knowing they won’t stay. They build a home so secure that the child feels brave enough to leave it. And they still do it. Because love is like that: unreasonable, generous, and often bittersweet."

This describes parenthood so well and the words are so touching. I'm loved and raised because my parents are helping me to grow in a way that I might take care of myself in the future. They prepare me to leave them. Pastor Huang told me the same thing before, too. He said that parents are always ready to let go, because they knew this since the very beginning, even long before we were born. I think I believe that my parents are strong enough send me out, away from them. And I also believe that they'll be happy watching me growing. I believe that they're happy because of me.

OMG... it seems that the tears won't stop tonight....